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Thursday, April 14, 2022
Clinical Detachment = Lack of Empathy?
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I am usually musunderstood with these things. To blend in as NT i already have turned my sensory perception way down and maybe offline on other areas depending on sitution. I take way more time to process things. Since many of us in permanent fight or flight mode. My first reaction is does my fam and animals need protected or helped. Then expanding. What can i do to help. Then have to search tons of websites to confirm and plan accordingly. I keep most of my reaction emotions low as the naracists find us tasty to mess with and i dont want them to get off on my energy so you wont see my reaction. You will think im super anxious as i am processing as much info as fast as i can and my mouth cant keep up with changing thoughts into thoughts nts will understand. I do same with different animal groups. The nt group communication in way that is not just known. To my brain. Like using speach with hearing impaired. Pictures with cisual impaied ect. I think we feel things so hard that we may shut the world out Ect. So prob is nts often dont know that its extremely hard to do things just right in place with no rules and me lesser ability to process 10 peoples body language analyzing head to toe. If eye wrinkles match smile. And analysis tones and figuring out backgrounds of speakers to figure out most likely meaning of their message. We know that we dont have same many things opposite strengths and weakness and whatever eaches weird gift is. Additionally. Those of us who go into hiding to recharge also have to keep from hulking out or having tantrum or letting stim out. Least energy to do quick is aware but sleep mode on processing. From the limited interacting the subtypes excetra given individuality of humans male autustics dont think in my way. We are seen as a group that is stamped into world like cookie men. Plus which culture is going to be ok to reply not to hurt someones feelers. Are they from deep south. Different polietness ways. From chicago. Straigh talking and using the opposite thing in relaxed situations. Good friends will greet with stuff like there you are b. Dont use that way in south. Then add gotta stare at peoples eyes or nts will think you are shady untrustworthy liar. So have to consuder how long uncomfortable for your bt friend. As with them too long is frightening so you are crazy which is scary. If my facial expession not matching how yours does means i dont have any researve energy to think about i have to turn on and use nt body movements so they wont be uncomfortable. It really at times is just too much. Especially as very rare for nt to attempt to help much toward communicating my way. And not their fault. Society doesnt teach people how unique each human and all the genetic differences in strengths and weaknesses. We prob no ours and if not tons of society pressure to conform. I think at times lower functioning just shut down around people due to energy and focus requirements. The ones i met communicate just fine with me. Im asked wow how did you get them to learn this thing ie shrink wrapping. They were doing. I shrugged cause rude to say is it not obvious i used their “language”. Anyway hopeful this info helps someone improve in understand others
I am usually musunderstood with these things. To blend in as NT i already have turned my sensory perception way down and maybe offline on other areas depending on sitution. I take way more time to process things. Since many of us in permanent fight or flight mode. My first reaction is does my fam and animals need protected or helped. Then expanding. What can i do to help. Then have to search tons of websites to confirm and plan accordingly. I keep most of my reaction emotions low as the naracists find us tasty to mess with and i dont want them to get off on my energy so you wont see my reaction. You will think im super anxious as i am processing as much info as fast as i can and my mouth cant keep up with changing thoughts into thoughts nts will understand. I do same with different animal groups. The nt group communication in way that is not just known. To my brain. Like using speach with hearing impaired. Pictures with cisual impaied ect. I think we feel things so hard that we may shut the world out Ect. So prob is nts often dont know that its extremely hard to do things just right in place with no rules and me lesser ability to process 10 peoples body language analyzing head to toe. If eye wrinkles match smile. And analysis tones and figuring out backgrounds of speakers to figure out most likely meaning of their message. We know that we dont have same many things opposite strengths and weakness and whatever eaches weird gift is. Additionally. Those of us who go into hiding to recharge also have to keep from hulking out or having tantrum or letting stim out. Least energy to do quick is aware but sleep mode on processing. From the limited interacting the subtypes excetra given individuality of humans male autustics dont think in my way. We are seen as a group that is stamped into world like cookie men. Plus which culture is going to be ok to reply not to hurt someones feelers. Are they from deep south. Different polietness ways. From chicago. Straigh talking and using the opposite thing in relaxed situations. Good friends will greet with stuff like there you are b. Dont use that way in south. Then add gotta stare at peoples eyes or nts will think you are shady untrustworthy liar. So have to consuder how long uncomfortable for your bt friend. As with them too long is frightening so you are crazy which is scary. If my facial expession not matching how yours does means i dont have any researve energy to think about i have to turn on and use nt body movements so they wont be uncomfortable. It really at times is just too much. Especially as very rare for nt to attempt to help much toward communicating my way. And not their fault. Society doesnt teach people how unique each human and all the genetic differences in strengths and weaknesses. We prob no ours and if not tons of society pressure to conform. I think at times lower functioning just shut down around people due to energy and focus requirements. The ones i met communicate just fine with me. Im asked wow how did you get them to learn this thing ie shrink wrapping. They were doing. I shrugged cause rude to say is it not obvious i used their “language”. Anyway hopeful this info helps someone improve in understand others
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